guess i'm down, really down.. no reply yet..
guess reply wun come at all..
the only encouraging thing i got is from jane's sms.. haiz...better den nothing ba

 只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴
安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着 我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪
我根本不想分开
为什麽还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份
包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多
我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开
我也会慢慢走开
为什麽我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份
安静的没这麽快
我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你

Wat to do with unforgiveness?? joseph chen's powerful message today.. hitting many dead in the heart. deep down below, i am sure many have bear grudges, against so many.. whether we wan it or not.. revelation came after service, i see many ppl, reconciling with one another, some had issue so deep that cause a emotional out pouring.. the kind of release that can only be experience thru such encounter..
i tot to myself, how abt me? the emotional hurts that had been piling up, the broken friendships, the effort once made but now amount to nothing..
i wan to set myself free too..
had a impulse to clear things out on the spot.. but i didn't dare.. i was afraid.. so afraid..
i have reach my limit for the amt of emotional damg i can take.. i can't afford to make anymore mistake..
unable to reconcile and be set free... the self withdrawal con't ...
funny thing is, so many issue with so many ppl. y only this one.. why?

Who actually care??
maybe a few...
maybe not.